Connecting with the Collective
I am so grateful.
Before the gathering, I was buzzing with extremely high vibrations after eating all delicious plants at dinner. Homemade beet and cauliflower burgers wrapped in lettuce leaves with garden herbs and fresh market tomatoes. Juicy pineapple for dessert. I was energetically and physically prepped in the most optimal way to receive.
I arrived at Maria's and saw a huge circle of people gathered in the grass overlooking the ocean, all dressed like me, with face paint and body adornments, tie die and bright greens and yellows, the biggest grins I've ever seen. everyone was letting their pure, beautiful light shine. Looking back, I was so overwhelmed, felt so dark, and all day I didn't want to go. I didn't want my dim light to affect others, I didn't want to give or receive, I wanted to close like a flower at dawn. Afterward, Maria told me she felt the exact same way. Funny how us mighty and divine womxn will often feel exhausted before a powerful, holy experience. But this community gathering was exactly what we both needed. To come home to our brothers and sisters, to our pure hearts, to the earth.
I never knew there were so many people in this town just like me. Whose missions on this earth are to radiate joy and consciousness, whose emanating glory blesses and uplifts all they touch. Those radiant humans surrounding me, smiling at me just as brightly as I smiled at them, took me in and grounded me deep into the soft soil. We played with essential oils to open our heart spaces, release toxic emotions, and prepare our third eyes for an immense and immediate opening. Through a yoga flow guided by several wise and powerful beings, we connected deeply with mother earth as the sun set in vivid orange. During savasana, when all were resting, I put my palms up towards the darkening sky. I received. I let myself open to the sacred and omnipotent light that is always begging to be let in. I pulled the moment into my chest. I found my heart for the first time in a place I never even looked. It beat with such vigor, such vital life force, that I was (I am) convinced that it will beat long after my body returns to the earth. I whispered into the sweet grass, "forever, forever, forever..."
I met several new friends that I know will empower me for a lifetime. One said to us as we gathered in a tight circle, smoking sacred plant medicines and squirming around with joy, that they never thought they would meet people that saw and accepted them for who they are. They thought they would always have to be alone. I resonated. I wanted to sob, to hug them, to throw them up into the sky like a bouquet of flowers and catch them again on their way down. And they saw me, too. These twenty years of feeling alone are over. A new community has formed. A sisterhood made up of goddesses and gods and non-binary divinities alike whose collective energies make sacred love and bear new fruits of freedom.
We are Free from the darkness. we are Free from loneliness, from fear, from shame, from self-doubt. with my sisters and brothers, I stand strong like the most alluring and enlightened manzanita tree.
Before I left, La Valentina ecstatically told us about the performance that we will be in that she has created. We will perform a sacred dance in an art gallery, illustrating the dark and light duality of earthly existence. Leo and I exchanged verbal gifts of acceptance and love. Maria and I held our bellies together for a "womb kiss". Oh, goddess. may the vibrations of this evening reverberate, always.
Before the gathering, I was buzzing with extremely high vibrations after eating all delicious plants at dinner. Homemade beet and cauliflower burgers wrapped in lettuce leaves with garden herbs and fresh market tomatoes. Juicy pineapple for dessert. I was energetically and physically prepped in the most optimal way to receive.
I arrived at Maria's and saw a huge circle of people gathered in the grass overlooking the ocean, all dressed like me, with face paint and body adornments, tie die and bright greens and yellows, the biggest grins I've ever seen. everyone was letting their pure, beautiful light shine. Looking back, I was so overwhelmed, felt so dark, and all day I didn't want to go. I didn't want my dim light to affect others, I didn't want to give or receive, I wanted to close like a flower at dawn. Afterward, Maria told me she felt the exact same way. Funny how us mighty and divine womxn will often feel exhausted before a powerful, holy experience. But this community gathering was exactly what we both needed. To come home to our brothers and sisters, to our pure hearts, to the earth.
I never knew there were so many people in this town just like me. Whose missions on this earth are to radiate joy and consciousness, whose emanating glory blesses and uplifts all they touch. Those radiant humans surrounding me, smiling at me just as brightly as I smiled at them, took me in and grounded me deep into the soft soil. We played with essential oils to open our heart spaces, release toxic emotions, and prepare our third eyes for an immense and immediate opening. Through a yoga flow guided by several wise and powerful beings, we connected deeply with mother earth as the sun set in vivid orange. During savasana, when all were resting, I put my palms up towards the darkening sky. I received. I let myself open to the sacred and omnipotent light that is always begging to be let in. I pulled the moment into my chest. I found my heart for the first time in a place I never even looked. It beat with such vigor, such vital life force, that I was (I am) convinced that it will beat long after my body returns to the earth. I whispered into the sweet grass, "forever, forever, forever..."
I met several new friends that I know will empower me for a lifetime. One said to us as we gathered in a tight circle, smoking sacred plant medicines and squirming around with joy, that they never thought they would meet people that saw and accepted them for who they are. They thought they would always have to be alone. I resonated. I wanted to sob, to hug them, to throw them up into the sky like a bouquet of flowers and catch them again on their way down. And they saw me, too. These twenty years of feeling alone are over. A new community has formed. A sisterhood made up of goddesses and gods and non-binary divinities alike whose collective energies make sacred love and bear new fruits of freedom.
We are Free from the darkness. we are Free from loneliness, from fear, from shame, from self-doubt. with my sisters and brothers, I stand strong like the most alluring and enlightened manzanita tree.
Before I left, La Valentina ecstatically told us about the performance that we will be in that she has created. We will perform a sacred dance in an art gallery, illustrating the dark and light duality of earthly existence. Leo and I exchanged verbal gifts of acceptance and love. Maria and I held our bellies together for a "womb kiss". Oh, goddess. may the vibrations of this evening reverberate, always.
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